so not healthy.

wen trusting is not that easy. wen words i ought to speak doesnt come out right. wen the past is making the present hold doubts. wen i see vividly how being unfair works. This has been the worst thing he has done to me through his past. 

i do not speak so much words and wen i speak i always try to make them politically appropriate. this now, made me feel how being unfair stings like shit.  i know this is some sort of immaturity, but i should have made my self the mega bitch way back so my side and his now is equal in the justice table. 

i hear in my mind the sound and the words and it breaks my heart. why the heck i am doing this? because it doesnt sound ryt. if only he was just careful.