gahig ulo. >: /

sumtyms i pretend to be like a dork and the not-listening-type-dumbass just because i dont want to say yes everytime and all the time. even if those things are meant for the betterment of my self and for us. it doesnt sound right at all, i know. 

i feel better now, i guess im done with the little evil thing. i dont know if i am in position to be sorry or to congratulate myself—- it was ridiculous. i have fought for this but the thought of it makes me weak. i know i was being selfish i also know i was badly hurt. i dont actually care about the act, i care about what he was because it is wat he is.

this calls for a change.  he has made his self clear, i had all the thorns out .

i am okay now.. but is he?