F U

I dont know if i am the only person who felt this way.

I know i am complete but i feel so deprived. i felt like my senses are not working for me. My eyes didnt see, my mouth didnt questioned,my ears didnt hear anything and my nose didnt even smell the condom.(or i doubt if they used). Anyways, i have to figure out what lies behind those smiles of guilt and sorry.(or did they even felt it?). Since i started hooking up, past frigs is totally not an issue(im sorry for the word). Just as long as telling me as early as you can imagine.  I have not felt this way before and to tell you i am not liking it. 

I HAVE BEEN DECIEVED.

For the past few months, i thought i knew everything. Like, every bit and every shit. And for the past few months i was fooled.  It just dont feel right at all.. It is not… and it wil never be. I do not care about the “F” thing, its just  “F” anyways. You can give it to anybody if youre just a total hoe.(im sorry for the word again i dont know how to make this blog look clean if the issue is just ridiculuosly filthy). Well the “F” thing is just the “F” thing. But the point here is, i know hearing the truth kinda suck but hiding the truth from you is the worst thing a lover can do. I know y’all agree with me.  I JUST DONT LIKE THE IDEA OF “ME” BEING FOOLED WITH 2 GREAT PEOPLE.

It frustrates me so much thinking that this is not fair again. I know this is crazy but i have this feeling of  extreme urge to hook up on somebody random (minus the S to the T to the D, of course). Or even regret why i never allowed my ex boyfriend to get inside my pants when the warmth of our system is at its peak.