and then i go boompbobompbomp!
June 15, 2009
i nevr thought i can change my life’s point of view from my dirty old CRAAP! to ohh yeeaahh CRAP! now i realize wat they always say,”make the best of life”. i have realized on a lot of things and if u can just dig in deep to it, we can probably have a cup of coffee and talk about fruitful at the same time nonsense stuffs.i have lived my life thinking i am the least among “them”, that i am unworthy and inadequate. i have heard positive things about “them” and heard doubts about me. unfortunately, until now i can still feel how it feels to be their problem. i never thought i cud meet people who are happy with my downfall. i know i am the least among them and i just cant help it if i get emotional at the end of the day.
lately, i see girls wearing tank top,short shorts, and flipflops and i just cant imagine myself wearing one of those bec. i know i will look like a dork craving for yumyum calories with a sign on my back,”pls kick my a*s”.
despite all of these,i have realized i can make a difference in my what i call life. lately i can make myself happy in my own little way. having large fries and a cokefloat sitting in a corner alone at mcdonalds can make me smile and say, “ohhllalala nothing can get any better than this”. u see, wen u perceive life in a more positive way though ur at ur lowest makes the world go topsy turvy. and if u seek God within u, u can actually live happier and appreciate every single moment.
though it seems that i havnt learned much of academics, but i have learned the most precious lesson in life which is more important. maybe this term is not for me. i believe this term is set to make my eyes open about the reality of life and the kindness of God.
but u see, sometimes i just feel so tired and just wanted to cut my life and end everything. I AM TIRED. and i dont have any idea how to rest wen evrybody else is making you move.
